27.5.04

Average Everyday Sane Psycho

I'm in a horrible mood today. I feel on edge and unhappy. The weather has been too cool to swim the last couple of days and today it's raining. I guess I feel trapped. I asked Mike to get milk on his way home and he told me no. It put me off even more and then Donovan complained about lunch. The smell of the rain and a nice full belly have helped a little.
Tomorrow we visit the midwife but everything's become so routine that some of the excitement is missing. I hope she'll be able to help me find the heatbeat with my Bebesounds. We put some headphones against my belly and let Keira listen to some music. Some classical stuff like Bethoven and Bach. She seemed to enjoy it a lot. I had planned to try it again tonight but Mike will be home late and he seems distant lately. I think work tires him out. Work. Life. I've been where he is. He counts down the days until we are self sufficient enough for him to quit. I miss him. I count the days as well.

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