Attack of the Schizos

I wish I could remember the last time I had an attack of the greasy grey. It has been awhile and I wonder if its hormones keeping it away. While I battle the little moodswings on a day to day basis they are usually short lived and easy to recognize. They don't eat at my soul like the big greasy grey. Like everything else, I hope this is a permanent end to the gaping hole, this sick queasy blockage in my chest chakra but with my history of mental instability it probably isn't. At least I can hope for a long vacation from it.