It's Sitting on my Shoulder

178lbs
fundus 27in
How strange that I just talked about the greasy grey and now I can feel it lurking over my shoulder. I can feel the empty vacuum in my chest and as always, Mike is out and about. Everyday this week he's been gone. I wonder if there is some connection. Does he sense to coming of the greasy grey or do I feel the greasy grey when he isn't around. Should I tell him now before it's a full on attack or leave him completely out and try to work it out myself? They all depend on if he knows and is avoiding me because of it. Does he even know he's avoiding me?